Blanket...

I cover you with protection and have shielded you from harm.....and so many of you want it, need it fight for it...many give your life for it...Freedom! but yet we all close our eyes to many wrongs...a few will fight the fight........but who really wins! I love to write, sometimes it has meaning and some times none...writing is a tool, a way of escaping, you can be who ever you want to be.... I flow like water and push like the wind...my thoughts are like the sun...quick to warm you, but quick to burn...don't hide from your faces but meet them head on...trouble can be a drink of water...and that it is gone..I am just laughing inside...Life for me is fun, not rich, but not poor...what I don't have in money I have in pride...Don't have to believe in false prophets or words from some book...I just put trust in me...and never take a second look...Ha Ha there I go on and on...Here is a thought not made from hate, but of love and more mistakes...to live a life...and learn a lesson, will keep the haters always...Guessing! Peace in the world...for we all live here!

Soooo Tired

Seems the State has found a very fixable thing in my building...but I know they need job security.....SO BRING IT ON!!!! Sorry this is late today, but what can you do when the very people who can close you down, show up? So I have been on a steady decline I would say...my body doesn't like me....lol! I have no drive...no passion...no nothing...Could it be stress...I don't even know? When does it all end....growing old is not fun, and dam sure ain't pleasant! My energy level is low to day...got into a big argument...We need to learn how to talk to different types...you can't come at everyone with the same tone...but also we must listen...for everyone doesn't hear the same...for love watches from above, while hate from below...we are in the middle trying to find which way to go...a tug of luck, and a pish from fate...will probaly land you in the right place...

Bla Bla Blahhhhhhh...

This is all we hear when the conversation doesn't fit us...or go in away we want want it to...But ahhha!! Listen and hear it all...I am so guilty of just hearing my point (because it's what I want to hear) but that's not the right way. A clear mind is better than a cluttered one...so wait until you are ready, then speak on it. What you say may change a lot of things. I spent some much needed time with my girls..I think I've been so rapped up in my own little world that I have been neglecting the vary ones who look at me as strength...But its hard to be strong when suddenly, your amour has chinks in it (sorry not meant in a racist way) I can't even think of when I had so much going on....I wish sometimes for the years of old...not the years getting old! Be at peace with the cards you are dealt...know that somethings aren't meant to be...but the things you have are meant to be...Is giving ones dreams up hard? Or the dreams that we had manifest into diffrent realities...Funny but you can run from a lot of thigs...But time waits for nobody....Hands bound by failure, are only tied by you....I wish I could just snap my fingers, and have a fix for everything...But what good would that do? We would just take for granted the things that are in front of us! I move with the whistling of the wind...a mountain to me, is but a small object..the sea is where my thoughts dive to the bottom...but only to surface again, into real life..the trees hold up my spirt, as birds swoop down to tell me there stories....Why the Sun cries out, That it only wishes to meet the rain....I listen as the weeping willow, weeps...and wonders..Why is the world bearing down on me? No answer comes...and it weeps more, and more....eeys to see, but blind is the man who has everything..but does nothing!

Are you sure?

Lets face it...We all want control in what we do with our lives...Myself as a father want my kids to have control over there lives..I will give the foundation for them to build on, but it's there lives to live. One of my biggest things is open dialog....If you don't believe that a person will be open and honest with you at all times...how can you expect them to be honest when it counts the most? My oldest daughter who should be leading the way for the younger ones to follow has decided in her wisdom not to tell me anything....As she says "that why I don't tell you anything" Wow...I say to that, then you can't ever tell me you don't understand me...because you would be right! But the funny thing is that was your choice....This battle at who is right and who is wrong has been raging on before me and mine...but with me its not a battle...you are right until you become wrong!!! So what can I do..I try to let them make mistakes, and I try not to be judgmental...Yes I do get mad...but not to the point I will stay mad...I believe if you want to be taken at face value...then you should prove your value and be up front...It's not about having your own life, its about enjoying your life with those who truly love you.....I smile but inside..I am proud and it screams loudly inside...I should show my mask of love..but inner wars have clouded my thoughts...am I mad at the world...or at myself...I walk alone, but with many..all faces all eyes...whats to become of me...where will I be...when the silence becomes so loud!

Trust

Trust is a blanket that we put on...it keeps us in tune with lots of things...but when trust is breached then things change...We all want to be trusted...but do we do the things that warrant that? You can't think by not saying anything, that you can expect someone to trust you! If I need a friend..I want to trust him/her....but trust is not spare change handed out when ever you feel like it....You must insure you are also trustworthy....Today is a great day, lots of birds in the sky...but the threat of great despair is on the horizon...we need a way to fix whats going on in our world...but yet we are stretched to thin over vast areas...when does the US fix its own problems first? Are we doomed like most super powers...certain to fall apart at our own hands...can we all pull together, because when it goes down....so do we all! MJ is having his life ripped apart...why is it the best thing for the MJ kids to live with his mom...she is old...and joe Jack lives there...maybe the Mom should step up....Ice from my eyes will soothe the fire in my soul...but nothing can quench the thirst for the very thing, that we all covet... The feeling of what am I meant to do...do I belong...just know this...you are what you make yourself..don't let where you live, or how you grow up change who you really are...

Wow!

I just got hit with the Whammy I have a big inspection from work...and now the State comes in....Freedom of choice...that's what they say, but when you do speak out they brand you as a trouble maker...so what do you do? Me I say whats on my mind...but I do find a better way to say it...Laugh til it hurts...if life gets crazy, just take a step back and breathe....I don't know where Im going with this blog but it sure aint to the bank....as the the book of MJ starts to truly open...you can't help but to wonder who he truly was...I hope they don't destroy what we have all come to love...Obama...so you are the President...but I still am waiting for you to show us the way...the USA is in bad trouble,and while it wasn't you who put us there...it's now your task to get us out....SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING?..I slowly turn my feet in a counter-clock wise way...to see if time will go in reverse, to see if a whole in my heart can refill it's self..but no matter how I try..it doesn't..So I close my eyes and take a trip back down memory lane...and it's a good one...I see the beats of my youth, sourrounded by friends and family..I see my visons of what I want to be,and where I want to go...am I disapointed? Np..Im blessed with treasures that can never be taken from me..I sail on a ship of happiness, and my crew is Love...and we are headed to eternity....Live the dream, but don't sleep your life away.....

As we go!

I cannot say where and how, but I can tell you this..It started because it needed to! If I was a betting man am I'm not, I would venture to say life is a losing venture! Think about it....You come into this world not knowing anything...then you are systematically programed! But when you break from the so called normal way...you are deemed an outsider...Life is your game...you play it under your rules, but using the rules that are set for you! You cannot and must not discard the foundation that has been set for you...but how you build on it makes it yours. If men, and women are created equal..then we must equally share in the failures of the world! but failure is a fleeting word...it is the chain that holds us all...but chains are meant to be broken! Its all you! don't be afraid to fail...put both hands on it and pull...I have seen my life and its not a movie..I can die, but I can live..... Show me the path and I may walk it, but not alone...I am a star gazer one who watches...one who learns...

The King.....

You know I remember when I was a kid, Elvis died...I didn't quite understand the big deal... But now that Michael Jackson has passed I can relate! I don't need to go on about who he was....His music speaks volumes... I was trying to listen to his music yesterday on my way home...but the stupid KMEL DJ kept adding his JC...JC....JC...jc...jc in the song every 2mins I don't want to hear all the stupid mixes that they are doing...His music is the foundation for all the music of today.. Well tomorrow is our family BBQ...good eats and great people! Things that I see when my mind drifts is vision of what was and what could be....shadows of nothing hanging in my mind...as cold steel rushes by me on a one way highway..Its summer and I miss my childhood days of summer fun...UGH!!! Growing up succccccccccccccks!

Life's Wonders

Ok can someone please explain to me, why when your driving on the freeway another car tailgates you, as to say speed up!!! But you can clearly see the traffic is moving slow...but then they zoom pass you and get right in front of you!!!! But in reality they are going no faster than before, and they are still stuck in traffic...Ok so yesterday I had to write up 3 of my workers for not being in uniform...I get that it's a policy and we want to have a good appearence...But they were all wearing jeans and were clean...but more importantly they were working...when do we draw the line? Farrah Fawcett passed to day of colin cancer...when I was a kid she was considered the Hottest Angel...Cancer is something we need to spend more money and time on....Steroids!! You know if you listen to the old timers talk about the game...you will hear them give praise to guys that were just out there in that era!! From playing the game drunk...to spit on the ball...heck even sharpening the spikes on the shoes....Sports have never been pure and clean of any body trying to gain some kind of advantage....So I don't really care if this era has used Steroids....because a lot of them did...so the playing field was level...So trying to say the game has been ruined is just crazy..HaHa Perez Hilton got socked up!!! thats good...if you are going to run your mouth....someday it's going to get closed....Well thats all for today sorry so late..but I was tired....

UGHHH!!!

So yesterday was very interesting to say the least... It doesn't matter who you are, where you are from...problems are the same. What we do to fix them, and how we fix them is what matters. Today I was reading a critics review of the new Transformers movie..He slammed it so bad, I like what I like..but he went on to say that if we (the movie goers) liked the movie,we were stupid...and he told the ending!!! What an ASS!! MSN should fire him.. So when does a boy become a Man? To me its when he can decided which battles he has to fight...but more importantly, how to fight them.. As I was driving in this mrng...I was thinking, "what is the reason" I mean we do everything we can to make life better for ourselves...but still we can never get ahead...I just want to scream...If you are a Dad, and you truly take care of your children..you shouldn't be screwed over by the Goverment..meaning..our fathers who didn't pay child support ever, never got taxed by the state for not paying...but here I am still paying for support and all but one of my kids lives with me...and the funny thing is...where is the money going to? NOT ME!!!! Well lastly my sister is back in Cali after a long East Coast stay....and I must say Im supppppppppper glad!

Me first

First off I just want to say Hello to all, second my post are what I think and or believe...I don't expect all to agree but I do expect feed back...also I will at times just rant or just keep writing, I won't use comas, periods, etc. This is not a English class.....So I say to all welcome to coaches world..let the games begin.............